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In a school meeting for the Senior teachers, my name was singled out for bad performance. It was a meeting for senior teachers, which meant that junior teachers like me need not attend. One of the senior teachers wrote a report for that meeting that says…. All the New Substitute Teacher’s Performance were satisfactory , except for me.What does that say about the person who wrote the report about me, behind my back- singling me out in front of everyone ?
How do you think I am suppose to react with this stupid teacher smearing my name & giving me a bad reputation infront of everyone?
She had just costed me my job & kicked my rice bowl. I needed that teaching job very badly to pay for my college tuition fees.
I thought that Performance Review Report was supposed to be confidential.
The thing that upsets me was, I honestly thought I was doing a good job & giving my best.
To put things in perspective, I was unable to control the last class. Not because I did not want to, but simply because I was afraid the pressure would get to me & I did not want that. My mother suffers from high blood pressure as a result from continuosly scolding & yelling at the maid. She advised me not to yell & scold the students & scream at them at the top of my lungs, until it affects your health.
But yet, I noticed that most of the time this is the only way a teacher can get the attention of her students & control the class- by Yelling & shouting & screaming at them.
I only had problems with that 1 class. A few months after that they took that class out of my schedule when they revised the whole school’s timetable due to a lack of teachers. When they took that class out of my schedule I honestly felt a relief, & I thought , ” Good, now I can focus more on my teaching, instead of wasting time scolding the problematic students,”.
But I didnt realise that stupid teacher had taken that into account & written such a bad report about me that it costed me my job.
She did not even talk to me about it or asked me how I was doing.
I was not informed anything about it.
In fact I found out about the report by accident.
And now it just costed me my job.
True, I wanted to transfer out to a school that did not had such a high stress level, but not like this.
The strange thing was, the school is a good school with high academic expectations, & the students all did their homework. It was a Girls School, which means there is no discipline problems involving the boys.
As I was studying part-time & teaching part time, I did not had the time to sit around & gossip with the other teachers in the staff cafeteria.
So did I just lost my job because I did not socialise or participate in their daily gossip ?
What do you think ?
I felt that I had to do what I did, because of my studies.I teach in a school & study piano part time, so I had to conserve my time & energy.I work 8 hours & come home & practice another 5 hours. Because its practice, its not like biology or chemistry where you can cram last minute study or burn the midnight oil.
As one of my friends put it, there is so much competition & back stabbing & politics & gossip there.)
My friend got the job offer (it was a contract renewal but requested for a transfer to another school.
What do you think?
Will I be able to get another teaching job ?